Too Little Too Much To Take...

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream.
It's not easy to be me....

-Five For Fighting,Superman-

I hate it when it happens...
the feeling is sooooo unbearable to take...
i felt like screaming at the TOP of my lungs and crying my eye balls OUT!!!
Damn!!!!!
I feel so HELPLESS..
I feel so STUPID....

the deal is...whats the BIG deal???
its like everyday theres something to fault with...
and for your own pleasure...
all you can say is we're STUPID????

we dont mind chores...
just give us FREEDOM...
freedom to SPEAK...
freedom to TAKE SOME AIR...
all you have to do is just LISTEN!!!!

you always what to BRING UP THE PAST....
as long as theirs a fault...
you wont mind REPEATING it OVER and OVER again until their another FAULT to deal with...

ALL our LIFE...
is for YOUR PLEASURE...
we try our best to NOT TO ASK FOR YOUR MONEY..
we tried our best to GET GOOD GRADES so you can BOOST at people...

you really LIKE bringing people DOWN dont you?
somehow,as I get older...
I DONT KNOW YOU...
I TRIED my hardest to focus on what really makes you BITTER...
and you can even call me STUPID in front of anyone who will listen...
no wonder i always feel STUPID...

YOU NEVER LISTEN!!!!!
WHY????!!!!!
is it just because i ddnt IMPROVE in university?
just so you know...
I TRIED MY BEST!!!!
my HARDEST BEST!!!
but all you can think is I'M FOOLING AROUND...
GOD THAT HURTS!!!!!!!

if your angry at something..
why is it ALWAYS US to take the BLAME?
why is it ALWAYS US to take the HIT?
YOU PUSHED ME AT THE HEAD!!!
it doesnt hurt on the HEAD...
it hurts at the HEART!!!

and you did it in front of the little ones..
how nice....
now...they have NO RESPECT for me...
even dared to call me STUPID!!!
hahaha~
hope your HAPPY....

we cant WAIT to GET OUT...
maybe you'll feel better if you just KICKED US OUT...
then we wont EAT your FOOD,
STAY under your HOUSE,
and you can BLAME it on us for not being OBEDIENT...
you did it once...i think you can do it again...

SORRY for being in the way...
i dont know why you ever even BOTHER to TAKE US AWAY in the FIRST PLACE....
maybe i'm being OVERREACTING...
but its getting TOO MUCH!!!

all of this made me JADED...
and I cant even tell the SINCERITY of OTHERS...
if i even did realize...
IT'S ALREADY TOO LATE...

know this...
WE LOVE YOU...
but it seems like...
YOUR TAKING IT FOR GRANTED...
maybe you'll miss us...
when the day comes that we wont come back again...


Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cuz everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you...
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you...
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take!


I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
become so numb, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you....

-Linkin Park,Numb-

-its the people close to our hearts that hurts us the most-
-its the people we love that is always alien to us-