before the new moon comes..theres twillight...

aarggghhh!!!!!

today, is the first time im commenting on a actor/actress!
im so fed up with all the publisity taken for new moon!
the trailer was soooooo dissappointing!
hey!
i love stepenie mayer...
i love edward cullen...
and i adore bella swan....

but!

i hate kristen stewart!

omg!!!!!!!! she always have to control her face! as if; 'look here,im pretty! im with robert pattison! were an item right now!' hello??????!!!!!!! youve ruin the whole movie demittt!!!!! you look so desperate!!!!! arrgghhhh!!!!!!!

i was so shocked to see you at the teen awards...you act sooooo like bella!!!!
but why oh why are you so pathetic in the movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the best part of all....why should you 'share' roberts lime light? and what's the problem of answering the question that you guys are an item???? so that people would watch 'new moon'???? hellloooo???? !!!! if your really THAT GOOD...you wouldnt need the interviews! huh!!!!!!

you guys are so uncooolllll!!!!!! and kristen? what the hell are you doing being with robert when you ALREADY HAVE A BOYFRIEND? and proudly saying ' ROBERT PROPOSED TO ME 4 TIMES?' hah! i have to say you did met your boyfriend when you both were casting in a same movie....maybe Robert's the next?

you guys are so new in the movie..you not adjusted yet at being famous..and yet you take all the lime light and making it worse...haha! the reason Twillight was a success is because we love EDWARD CULLEN! we love the VAMPIRES! NOT YOU GUYS!!!!

i could agree with the casting but you guys simply cant handle the gossips....

huh!

puas hati!

enola ma i.....

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What now?

I'm getting tired recently...
I dunno what to do..
I'm so lazy...

Aaaa~

Cepatla abes intern~

Giving the best

Do you always give your best?

Sometimes i do ask myself these questions since i always end up dissapointing people...especially the people i love...

Sometimes I do wonder was doing the best was enough...since i dont feel appreciated with what i do....

i juz dont understand why is it so hard to please them...theres always some fault or mistake that will be brought up...

I know i always want to give my best as well as showing them of what i can do...it may take awhile to deliver since im too stupid or so...they might have thinking it as an excuse but only God knows why....

maybe thats the reason im so sick of caring.....some friends always tend to say im caring..and i agree because thats who i am...but some dont..they just think of it as being busy body or spoilt....is it too much for being caring?


i know im not perfect ...because sumtimes i do it to myself too...

i know nobodys perfect but what i dont get is that you always label someone with expectations..and when thats not met...you lash out at them to satisfy your expectation..to make them feel so low to the bottom...even you may never know when it'll come up again...

what i know that what i do is not to satisfy others but rather to prove to myself that i can do it...

i want and like to give them the best...but its always not enough when its not in time...whats saddens me most is that i didnt knew or know what theyre expectation untill i get the lash....

i dont blame them...
i blame myself...
i dunno myself anymore...
im lost....
im a lousy loser...