I pray to Allah..please give me guidance...for You is all I have right now...
Today maybe the most depressing day in my life...
With my month juz came by,the pressure seems hard too take...
I never knew I could be this depress....but I know I'll survive...
Have you ever wonder yourself about trust? Have you ever asked yourself who you must trust? despite all the accuzation and confession? I'm in a situation right now that requires trust....Some people might not realize the importance of trust due to selfishness or naivity....
Trust is somthing you have to cherish your life with...to me,its like a thin crystal ball....specificly named after each person in your life....one day or two you might lie or create another story or two to save yourself from me....but this might juz put a scar on the crystal....but then,intentionally or not,when youve put it to a limit....a scar here and there might juz crack a crystal and by time will fall into pieces....ironic huh?
When trust is played around the person you love....you tried so hard not to leave a scar or two...regardless of what they say to you....at maybe some point,you feel as if they dont care anymore...with no words to tell and less action to show....how do you put a person to blindly trust what you convey? its you who dealt with all the work so that precious crystal ball wont break....
into pieces....
Honestly...Im dissapointed because all that hard work seem to go to waste....because with no realization comes no appreciation....as hard as you wanted it to work out...too much have too be given away ..and you know you wont have anything you wanted back...eventough you have waited for it for a long time....you cant seem to let it go even if they hurted you so bad...all that sacrifice seems a waste...
Hope can get you far...
But it can also bring a lot of pain....
Smile even when it hurts...
