Love me when I'm gone

The truth~

people always tend to find faults of others in terms of 'telling the truth'...

they go to great length just so that they can 'tell the truth' about others...

how pathetic ...

today,it was my first outbreak at home..i never ever had that kind of outburst..but man,was i mad? very!!!! stupid tol...menyampah lg ade...but i dont care now....when ur 12 yet you dont know how to wash the dishes! it really pisses me off!!!! hellow? getting good grade in exams doesnt mean you have the luxury to ignore your daily chores..duuuhhhh!!!!!

well..enough about me...ive been tending to do this post since i dont know when considering the STUPID NTERNET CONNECTION....i forget literlly..

enough of this,

the question to one self?

Are you really truthful to yourself?
Have you gone to great length just top prove that you can live in hardship and still reamins the same person you are meant to be?

Figures now...

There were many people that i have met this pass years of my life,yes...ive met various kind of people..ive seen them,met them, read about them...may it be man or woman...it varies...

Some people,they take huge risks..overcome boundaries...these people went and meet various people...done many things in their life...they lived their life....as much as i dont agree with them in certain aspect...i really respect them...yes,they lack certain things..they may not be the most pious person you ever met...they maybe not the smartest you met....but i respect them,because...as much of who i am to them....they still held me as friends...no hard feelings taken...no grudges....

Some people,they rather stay in the back..live among books...stay in a room...mix up with the same people everyday...their safe zone...not intruded nor interfered....i respect them though...because they could do what i cant..and they are really safe people to be with..:)...but sometimes,they an be unexpected...ive met a person,who is so famous for being pious,who turns out to be actively SMSing girls...wohohoho..im not accusing..im one of them..i should know...

Some people,they act both of the above...but still remains true to themselves...i respect these persons very much.....they truyly true...

What i think now is that,

Could you really know your real strengh is you havent took any risk?
Could you realy be the very person you are after taking those risk?

What i do know is;

Once youve done bad,its hard to be good again...if you think your not strong enough or up for it...dont ever think of doing it...let alone start it...

People will remember you being bad more than you being good...it the truth about people these days...

People will just judge you once youve done bad...i mean it...once...dats all it takes...

Maybe it the way of life now...and for me..no wonder some people had a hard time to change...people just kept on judging and judging from what they see...rather than sit beside them and ask them the real true story....mind over matter plz...but then...people these days are much more selfish than they should be...maybe becoz of the weather?politics?issues right now? i dunno...it seems that way now...that people just want to know eveything dunt dont really care about it....

im not a person to accuse...

because ive been that person too...

regretted it tho...

guilty..

i really miss him..;(

It been a long long time~

ARGH!

STUPID INTERNET CONNECTION!

I know...i know...its been a month from my last post and here I am making it up to you...sigh~...

a lot have been missed and i dont know where to start right now,argh!

stupid internet connection...

so Im taking this huge oppurtunity this mis semester to update of what ive been doing and what happened...

Sigh~

well,lets not dilly dally~

Firstly,

Ive turn 21 years old! haha! mari mengundi,mari3~ hahahahaha....yeah,that thrill huh? but a new feeling came this birthday...i dunno what but well....i felt a surge of Relief.....i think it maybe its because I really waited for this moment....

"Congratulations! Your a free woman now" -My Mother

Yeah,technically Im free....finally! sigh~ she maybe wrong about the woman part though..hahaha! I really dunno if i have the real strangh to do what i intended to do....it happens doenst it? when you desperately wanted something in you life so that you can achieve your goal...but when it does happened? where did all the spirit go?was it really just talk?.....from my part,it should be at the right place and the right time,with additional of the right mood...I really hope that someday will happen and it will happen smoothly.....Amin......

I guess it happens in life..when people misunderstood what we do and think have better judgement on it....hey,who are you kidding? did you really know a person so well you can just simply accuse them? its bad enough u accuse them but it didnt seem enough right? you just had to tell others....

Im not that plastic though..people talk..thats a fact ive known for so long,that i simply dont care

right now....and why should i? theres lot of hearts to care and surely youll only care for those who really cares for you...fullstop..

Seeing the people around me,id say that its a pity when at some point you became a celebrity,suddenly your the center of attention,then puff! it went juz like that....yeah...what makes it more pitier......they juz want to know the story....and dont even bother to care....i guess i doesnt make it easier when you have to face them everyday and dont know what to do about it.....

It sad even...when you do really care but you dont know what to do....in the end..you just have to let it go...

i guess some things are juz meant to be that way....

somethings we can handle,some we cant...

sometimes we can deal with it,sometimes we cant let it go....

we all have our own prespective....we cant just judge people of what they did in the past if in the future they did get better...

all of us are trying to be better the best we can....whats so bad in helping?

enough for today...

i rest my case....