I'm so tired right now....but then...I'm so bored too!!!!
Arghhh!!!!!
And I miss him badly.... ;(
Well...as we all know...a new year is about to come...
2009...
say goodbye to 2008...
so why we do recaps?
Status
Thats right,the most obvious thing and peculiar thing that happened to me was a change in status...which is ' In a Relationship' ...Finally~~ a friend of mine said...haha! but then...it was the most bizarre experience beoz it happened unexpectedly....a few of friends were not satisfied with my decision..worst come to worst...the BUSYBODIES ..dear Allah was only the reason I kept my sanity and let them be...but it seems to me some juz wont understand....wanna make me your new best friend becoz I'm taken? F*** Off...haha! what despises me tho is that they juz wont buzz off and asking questions that they are NOT suppose to ask....even my BEST FRIENDS dont ask those questions...haha!
Resolution: I wont compromise with this immaturity no more....youre messing with the wrong girl...I may look innocent but well...lets juz put that to a test
Friendship
Sadly for this year...lots of ups and downs in friendships that happened thru out te year..I juz dont understand how it happened..its not friendship with me tho..but my other friend with the other...Its so sad when u where shocked to find out your roomate was active in plagarism....and didnt contact you for the the rest of the semester.....(but then,I'll give a kick at the butt for that...haha!)...
All I can say is..all this crisis is due to misunderstancing and lack of what I call quality time with friends...If you feel like everyone is isolating u then its ur problem not theirs...and for u to jus run away from ur problems and ASSUMING people are talking behind ur back....well....the real deal is YOU....juz look into the mirror....ask yourself 'whos the verdict?'..i will assume you wont lie to yourself right?
but then...gud for those who are either on your way to change your status and already have...i wish you all gud luck and all the best....maybe its our prime time than that we reach the age we totally know ourself...I am also grateful that I still have the love and suppport of my dearest friends...thanks a lot guys...your the best...
Resolution:Next year...I'll try to tie up the loose ends...it might be too late..but then..lets not talk behind our backs right?
Studies
I really worked so hard this semester..and Im hoping so much it will turn out right...thank u sayang for your support...and all my friends who helped me so much in my studies....
It really was a tough semester..considering that my scholarship was at the edge...i really had to push myself....and nearly got over the edge too...I'm glad I have him...
Resolution: I want to be better in any cost...i wish to have a gold medal for EDX...wooo~
well....that's dat for now..i dunt want to make a lot of promises to myself if i cant keep it though...
one thing for sure,
always learn from your mistakes...
never take things for granted coz ull never know what will happen..
never forget who you really are....
happy new year...
i welcome thee....
2009~
30.12.08
23.12.08
Everyday I Love Him~
People make mistakes,that's why we're not perfect..if we are,than where's the fun and mystery about it? When mistakes are done,it better to solve it rather than making it worst...I'm glad he insisted on making me talk about it rather than let it be....I don't know but I believe,
That some things are meant to be,
And that you'll make a better me,
Eveyday I love you....
I never taught that dreams came true,
But you showed me that they do,
You know that I learn something new,
Everyday I love you...
Sometimes I taught it was too good to be true...but then I'm grateful just the way he is anyway...And what I love most was well...he simply taught me how to be simple......to sometimes let things go its own way....to just simply forgive and forget...It's hard at first....sometimes I cant eveb accept it...but then...I'm still learning...
Coz I believe that destiny is out of our control,
And you'll never live untill you love with all youre heart and soul....
What I'm sure of when I'm with him,I dont what to take him for granted....even if I feel like he did...its actually not because well....he's so far away and I'm stuck here...so the negative me as always take hold of myself...I'm sorry so much sayang....my bad....:( .....all I know is...I love him so much...I get to know a part of me.....
Its a touch when I feel bad,
Its a smile when I get mad,
All the little things I am,
Everyday I love you...
Seriously,I cant get mad with him long enough...it takes about one night...or even one day....coz at the end of the day..what really matters is what you feel for the person..and was it worth to hurt them if they unintentionally hurt you?....the best way is always just to talk about it....even if the truth hurts...its better than living a lie....
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best,
You know that I am truly blessed,
Everyday I love you...
And I'll give you my best..
Everyday I love you...
Im so grateful that I have him....
Miss him so very much....
17.12.08
kittty kats
He's so cute~~~~
There's a cute kitten we founded yesterday...hohohoho...he's so cute with his long fuzzy hair and blue eyes with white socks...haha! So now me and kakak where thinking,should we keep him and throw away the other cats or throw away him? huhuhuhu..hope he can stay though...hehehe~ He kissed me at the cheek..cute~~~
But well...my blog here today is not about this fuzzy furball who's exploring myroom right now and looking at me with those puppy dog eyes..(errr...or i can say kitty cat eyes?)..haha! but i would like to introduce some of my family members in the house who might be thrown away~~
Let start with this one here;
This one here is Do....the most affectionate male cat youll ever see....the posibbility for him to be thrown away? maybe none becaue the fact that he's male and dont pancut2 around the house....well,to be more precise,he DOESNT KNOW HOW..haahaha! He's a loving brother,uncle and son alright....smelling and licking the others butt...He's also the nosiest...and the most well behaved because he doesnt litter anywhere except in the litter box...all i can say is that he is a very pondan cat...hahaha!
ok..next~~~
this is Re....She's the youngest in the family chain...her mother died when ayah accidently hit her with the car and well...she adapts well...this blue eyed gal is very close to Do..following him everywhere around the house...if shes not around him,Do will eventually look for her...so devoted...sigh~~~~ (a fuzzy furball is clawing my feet..aiyaa..distraction......)....what i dont like about Re is that she evntually litters EVERYWHERE..not that i always help on the littering stuff but then,poor Madiha..haha!Pity the gud quality of Do is not being practised...sigh~~~
ok...next~~
this is Mi...the half sister of Do...the most and foremost jijiks of all of them...she has HINGUS...OMG~~~ and she affected Re and Uteh...this one here is quite adventurous...and has a weird habit of biting peoples toes for affection....it hurts!!! haha....but one thing bout her that makes her special is that she have a sort-of-green-and-yellow eyes...and...she has the most possibility be thrown away due of her sickness..bubye Mi...youll survive the Pasar Tani...
and the next one is...
this is my favourite Puteh a.k.a Uteh...the most retard of them all...she have problems with her back legs..with that,she cant walk or climb or run very well....when i say retard,i mean retard...she follows everyones steps and well,she doesnt care much if your a stranger...with her cute blue eyes...she looks so cute when she woke up from her sleep...blinking and adjusting the light with her wobbly structure..hahaha!(the fuzzy furball bumped his head?hahahaha~)but then,im not sure if she has the possibility to be thrown away...its a pity...she cant take care of herself much...tsk3~~
and save the best for last..tada!!!!
this is the oldest most feracious of all...Mek...you NEVER EVER MESS with Mek...she have talon like claws that youll likely watch then learn the meaning of pain...haha...this female cat here is sooooo gatal...she calls and looks for males....perigi mencari timba betul....and she has this ability to look at you,stare at you...untill you feel guitly...she is very territorial...if any cat,i mean any..was found around the house...beware~~~~...maybe thats why Do is pondan....but then...Mek is really a loving mother and grandmother...even now she lets them suck ke nippies....haha...she has a great possibility to be thrown away due to that she is sexually active...poor Mek..padan muka gatal sangat...
well...thats that...having cats for family is well...interesting..youll never know mischief they'll get u into....
cat lover me...
miss him so very much....
just thinking bout him makes me wanna cry~~~
*SIGH*
There's a cute kitten we founded yesterday...hohohoho...he's so cute with his long fuzzy hair and blue eyes with white socks...haha! So now me and kakak where thinking,should we keep him and throw away the other cats or throw away him? huhuhuhu..hope he can stay though...hehehe~ He kissed me at the cheek..cute~~~
But well...my blog here today is not about this fuzzy furball who's exploring myroom right now and looking at me with those puppy dog eyes..(errr...or i can say kitty cat eyes?)..haha! but i would like to introduce some of my family members in the house who might be thrown away~~
Let start with this one here;
This one here is Do....the most affectionate male cat youll ever see....the posibbility for him to be thrown away? maybe none becaue the fact that he's male and dont pancut2 around the house....well,to be more precise,he DOESNT KNOW HOW..haahaha! He's a loving brother,uncle and son alright....smelling and licking the others butt...He's also the nosiest...and the most well behaved because he doesnt litter anywhere except in the litter box...all i can say is that he is a very pondan cat...hahaha!
ok..next~~~
this is Re....She's the youngest in the family chain...her mother died when ayah accidently hit her with the car and well...she adapts well...this blue eyed gal is very close to Do..following him everywhere around the house...if shes not around him,Do will eventually look for her...so devoted...sigh~~~~ (a fuzzy furball is clawing my feet..aiyaa..distraction......)....what i dont like about Re is that she evntually litters EVERYWHERE..not that i always help on the littering stuff but then,poor Madiha..haha!Pity the gud quality of Do is not being practised...sigh~~~
ok...next~~
this is Mi...the half sister of Do...the most and foremost jijiks of all of them...she has HINGUS...OMG~~~ and she affected Re and Uteh...this one here is quite adventurous...and has a weird habit of biting peoples toes for affection....it hurts!!! haha....but one thing bout her that makes her special is that she have a sort-of-green-and-yellow eyes...and...she has the most possibility be thrown away due of her sickness..bubye Mi...youll survive the Pasar Tani...
and the next one is...
this is my favourite Puteh a.k.a Uteh...the most retard of them all...she have problems with her back legs..with that,she cant walk or climb or run very well....when i say retard,i mean retard...she follows everyones steps and well,she doesnt care much if your a stranger...with her cute blue eyes...she looks so cute when she woke up from her sleep...blinking and adjusting the light with her wobbly structure..hahaha!(the fuzzy furball bumped his head?hahahaha~)but then,im not sure if she has the possibility to be thrown away...its a pity...she cant take care of herself much...tsk3~~
and save the best for last..tada!!!!
this is the oldest most feracious of all...Mek...you NEVER EVER MESS with Mek...she have talon like claws that youll likely watch then learn the meaning of pain...haha...this female cat here is sooooo gatal...she calls and looks for males....perigi mencari timba betul....and she has this ability to look at you,stare at you...untill you feel guitly...she is very territorial...if any cat,i mean any..was found around the house...beware~~~~...maybe thats why Do is pondan....but then...Mek is really a loving mother and grandmother...even now she lets them suck ke nippies....haha...she has a great possibility to be thrown away due to that she is sexually active...poor Mek..padan muka gatal sangat...
well...thats that...having cats for family is well...interesting..youll never know mischief they'll get u into....
cat lover me...
miss him so very much....
just thinking bout him makes me wanna cry~~~
*SIGH*
5.12.08
holidays = boring days~
*SIGH*
its been like 5 days or so since semester holidays...and i'm completely famished....
right now...all i wanna do is sleep,sleep and more sleep...but i cant!!! tension bebeh~ i wanno do sumtin....
when the idea of going back to kelantan for raya haji holidays came up...argh~~~ im lazy for travelling rite now...i wish i could pretend to be sick or sumtin and curl up all day..golek3~~~....
huhuhu...semalam i cried..for the first time...because i miss sumone...sooooo muuuuchhhh.....huhuhu...who else? duhhh~~ usually i'll cry because i cant have him...(diz can be proven by the amount of blogs previously....)...i guess the term 'dont make her cry again' was not really his fault...im such a cry baby..uhuhuhuhuk~ sian my sayang terkejut...adeyh~ chaiyok2!! kata sayang...me? herm~~~....
i guess im totally bored rite now is due to the lack of amount of money in my account...argh~~ i cant buy the books i want...i cant go travel...ayah said im pemalas..yeah..this is the pemalas girl who just end up sweeping the whole house,putting up the laundry and folding them....i could do all the cycle of coz...but my sister was an early bird these days...i dunt care much...she juz want to make a good impression....
so this pemalas girl cant surf the internet as much as she want,waiting at least 1 am in the morning so that the house wont go in total black out due to the stupid tendang thing...budus3~~~...then...i cant go out...i cant hold or carry my hp whenever i want...what can i do actually do then? be a pemalas laaaahhh~~
huhuhuhu~ sorry for the complaints...i dunt have much to write anyway...maybe next time ill write about my cuty babies...all 5 of them..the smelly suckers...always spoils me...ciz!!! cant help feeling helpless with their blue,green or coklat eyes...
arghhh!!! geram3~~~
uhuhuhu~ i guess i'll make the list now...i promised sayang i would....huhuhu...i guess when u love someone unconditionally,u tend to forget the first thing that made you fell for him...uhuhuhu~ am i exaggetarating? ahahaha~ sorry....ahahaha...nk nangis plak...come on come on...big gurls dont cry...guess i was wrong about myself in a lot of things when it comes to him....huhuhu...sayang kata ape? keep ur mind on sumtin...what is sumtin?...lalalalala~....i cant figure~~~
i guess this is the end...or else ill end up writing so much bout him,when he reads this blog,he'll kembang so much....tp,ok gak? si keding tu jd gmoks..bukankah itu matlamat asal?hahahaha~
but then again,when i think back again,of the times ive been lonely...im pretty much thankful to God that i have sayang right now...maybe sumday ill write about him...how we met...xoxo....hahaha! there! wrote again bout him....
a fren of mine and sayang once said to me;
"what is eventually yours will come back to you"
guess he was right,with all my wailing and sobbing in the middle of the night...many wont understand by then...but then again,thanks dude~ hope youll find her soon...
u see...sometimes we have to look past sumting to find sumting...if u put so much condition in finding sumone...ull take bout what? forever to find the rite person...in my case..well...he juz filled up the most important things....let him be the first one to know...and im greatfull enough with juz dat....
miss him so much already....
its been like 5 days or so since semester holidays...and i'm completely famished....
right now...all i wanna do is sleep,sleep and more sleep...but i cant!!! tension bebeh~ i wanno do sumtin....
when the idea of going back to kelantan for raya haji holidays came up...argh~~~ im lazy for travelling rite now...i wish i could pretend to be sick or sumtin and curl up all day..golek3~~~....
huhuhu...semalam i cried..for the first time...because i miss sumone...sooooo muuuuchhhh.....huhuhu...who else? duhhh~~ usually i'll cry because i cant have him...(diz can be proven by the amount of blogs previously....)...i guess the term 'dont make her cry again' was not really his fault...im such a cry baby..uhuhuhuhuk~ sian my sayang terkejut...adeyh~ chaiyok2!! kata sayang...me? herm~~~....
i guess im totally bored rite now is due to the lack of amount of money in my account...argh~~ i cant buy the books i want...i cant go travel...ayah said im pemalas..yeah..this is the pemalas girl who just end up sweeping the whole house,putting up the laundry and folding them....i could do all the cycle of coz...but my sister was an early bird these days...i dunt care much...she juz want to make a good impression....
so this pemalas girl cant surf the internet as much as she want,waiting at least 1 am in the morning so that the house wont go in total black out due to the stupid tendang thing...budus3~~~...then...i cant go out...i cant hold or carry my hp whenever i want...what can i do actually do then? be a pemalas laaaahhh~~
huhuhuhu~ sorry for the complaints...i dunt have much to write anyway...maybe next time ill write about my cuty babies...all 5 of them..the smelly suckers...always spoils me...ciz!!! cant help feeling helpless with their blue,green or coklat eyes...
arghhh!!! geram3~~~
uhuhuhu~ i guess i'll make the list now...i promised sayang i would....huhuhu...i guess when u love someone unconditionally,u tend to forget the first thing that made you fell for him...uhuhuhu~ am i exaggetarating? ahahaha~ sorry....ahahaha...nk nangis plak...come on come on...big gurls dont cry...guess i was wrong about myself in a lot of things when it comes to him....huhuhu...sayang kata ape? keep ur mind on sumtin...what is sumtin?...lalalalala~....i cant figure~~~
i guess this is the end...or else ill end up writing so much bout him,when he reads this blog,he'll kembang so much....tp,ok gak? si keding tu jd gmoks..bukankah itu matlamat asal?hahahaha~
but then again,when i think back again,of the times ive been lonely...im pretty much thankful to God that i have sayang right now...maybe sumday ill write about him...how we met...xoxo....hahaha! there! wrote again bout him....
a fren of mine and sayang once said to me;
"what is eventually yours will come back to you"
guess he was right,with all my wailing and sobbing in the middle of the night...many wont understand by then...but then again,thanks dude~ hope youll find her soon...
u see...sometimes we have to look past sumting to find sumting...if u put so much condition in finding sumone...ull take bout what? forever to find the rite person...in my case..well...he juz filled up the most important things....let him be the first one to know...and im greatfull enough with juz dat....
miss him so much already....
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