waaaaaa~
i'll honestly admit i'll miss UTP...
but cant talk about it now since i'm still in UTP...
there are some things ive been bothered recently...
i keep feeling scared....
imagine yourslef feeling so insecure of your life,every bits and pieces that you have will vanish..and then came the feeling of loss...i hate that feeling...i guess it goes back to the days when you were small and innocent....
a few of my friends know of my predicament...but i never once told any soul about how i really feel at that particular moment...its true when experts say, when your a children...you tend to remember what happen...even if you dont..it'll effect you later in life...
sad....
honestly...its been a long time since i felt trapped...i always tell myself...'i want to be free' but i dont know how...or wat am i supposed to be free from?...at times i would draw myself trappend in a cage with chains attached to my feet...as tough im a prisoner and theres always a chain tied up to me...its so frustrating you just want to quit...i dont see myself as a quitter...but i know one thing i seldom act due to fear of failure...
frust....
but i guess being paranoid keeps your head in life right? you look before you leap, you prevent father than cure and you do what you have to do to survive...maybe it is a blessing...and being able to keep my head strait these tough moments in my life...i know i can survive...:)
live your life to the fullest
i dont think its wrong to feel that way..but it sure helps to be more confident in life and getting to do what you always wanted to do...but then again,its always best to appreciate what you have and be gratefull about it..one day,who knows its gone forever,right?
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