jealousy...
thats what i saw in your eyes when i broke the news....
you ask for the price and told me how expensive it was...
you made a face and went to your room for a long time....
my excitement for that day was lost by that moment....
my effort to make myself away was wash away just by that...
did it occured to you that i was proud of myself?
did it occur to you that i never meant to make you feel bad?
i kept asking myself what was wrong...
what significant act that i did that always make you upset...
did you know that i originally wanted to kept it a secret?
that i brought it to be the sunlight in my life...
a hope...
a dream...
or
a maybe even a present for myself...
i have never thought youd say those words...
how it had made me worried...
how i felt sad over such little time of excitement...
i vowed that day...
that i promise to myself...
if i wanted to make myself happy...
i'll just keep it to myself...
if me being sad or unhappy has made your day...
then its fine by me...
its been along time a feel happy and proud...
though youd like the share...
maybe i should follow my first instinct...
just shut up and kept it a secret....
no one will notice or care....
its weight i will carry..
not as a burden....
i'll let it shine...
i'll held it in my hands...
i'll grasp any hope it gives...
it'll be my vision...
your indifference will soon meant nothing to me...
what i feel i'll care now....
i'll keep it to myself now....
they say sharing is caring...
i guess that doesnt imply in my case...
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